Even though my "plate" is way past full, I decided that was even more the reason I should start doing this. I'm not going to be able to remember all this and one day I'm really going to want to look back on these amazing experiences.
---to elaborate on my "plate" let's start with the fact that I recently (by recently I mean this past fall, ha) moved 2 1/2 hours away from home and enrolled at a different college because of the new dance program they were opening. Although all of the dance classes + regular classes + rehearsals + shows +work, can be overwhelming I really love it and think it will all be worth it.
-the complicated part of this distance between my house and "home", is that EVERY Monday and most Saturday and Sundays I have to drive that long 2 1/2 hours to the studio my mom and I own, to teach. ---everyone always reacts the same way when I tell them about this by telling me how crazy I am. Which I guess when I step back and look at it, it is kind of ridiculous...but I just can't bring myself to close down my studio. I absolutely love my students and if I don't drive home to teach them...they don't have a choice but to find another studio. Mom passed the studio down to me when I graduated highschool and I feel like if I ever close it down, it will never be the same. I know more than likely I won't end up living in my hometown for the rest of my life, but at this point in my life I would rather wear my car and body out than make that big of a decision.....not to mention it's not exactly awful getting to see my family at least once a week. :)
I'm not sure what happened this month, or the last for that matter, but the weeks are FLYING by. I guess having rehearsals EVERY single night probably helps with that.
I know that it's normal to always doubt yourself, but I seriously get lost in the crowd sometimes. I look around in class at these amazing dancers and wonder how in the world I got there....and then I hear my modern teacher in the background and have to make myself forget about whatever I'm thinking about to try and master whatever insane choreography she came up with for today. To give a visual, she's one of the skinniest people I've met...and being in the dance business, that's saying alot. She used to have long reddish-blonde hair but I guess to add to her modern edge decided to cut it all off in a cut that's shorter than most guys...(has the whole Mia Michaels thing going on). She doesn't believe in giving our accompanist an 8ct or a beat to go off of, instead she describes the music she wants by saying things like "jeeyah teeeDAHteeDAH ehhhYUCKehhteeDAH". haha...that's the best I can do.
Today was just one of those days...I just really wasn't in dance mode. I just wanted to leave the studio, walk to my car....collect my 884539753rd parking ticket of the semester, drive to my house and get back in bed, but obviously that wasn't an option because if you miss a single class, you're out of the show. period.
I don't even want to re-read what I just wrote because I know 99% of it is about dance or something dance related. I hate that I'm that predictable...but it's all I ever do lately, so it consumes my conversation. I should really get out more. Like tonight for instance....my one night off, you would think I would go out to eat, maybe go see a movie or hang out with some friends, but instead I've been sitting at home all night and the only time I left was to pick up my takeout sushi. It's just like whenever I'm not at work or rehearsal all I want to do is be lazy. I can't wait to graduate and have a normal routine. I can't wait to get married and start a family....start teaching kindergarten (yeah, you heard me right) and expand my studio. :)
A few of my 5 and 6 year olds backstage at a competition. They did AMAZING!!
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